I believe poetry is in the eyes of the
interpreter. The poet had a visual intent and meaning of an
event he wanted to share; however, the enigmatic inclination of
poetry lends itself to interpretation. So in my "cliffnotes"
here I am sharing my intent, despite the fact that my poems
may be interpreted differently depending upon the reader. Ksana-Kai is a story told in poems after all and so
some things have to be concrete. For example, the character
died or the character didn't die. Concrete events determine
the plot and the story develops characters and situations,
builds to a climax, there is resolution, and an ending. My "cliffnotes"
will be short. I'm attempting to give you the concrete intent
of each poem and maybe additional details, such as who is
speaking.. Enjoy the art of the riddle and
try to figure out
the poems for yourself before you read the "spoilers."
Ksana-Kai volume I
Episode 1: Ksana-Kai bids a tearful farewell to her
boyfriend, Kaji, who is on a plane headed to California.
Episode 2: A flashback of how Ksana-Kai
and Kaji first met on the beach.
Episode 3: Kaji is celebrating in
rhyme and song how much he loves to run; however, he is
affected by stirrings of love for Ksana-Kai
Episode 4: Ksana-Kai yearns that
Kaji's love for her is genuine.
Episode 5: Ksana-Kai and Kaji make a
promise to love each other eternally.
Episode 6: Ksana expresses her
desire to be intimate with Kaji.
Episode 7: Kaji envisions Ksana-Kai
as a Princess
8: Kaji and Ksana-Kai playfully personify themselves
respectfully as a trellis and a grapvine.
Episode 9: Ksana-Kai
experiences a state of "deja vue" in which she envisions a
former life before Kaji.
Episode 10: Kaji is in a state of emotional chaos,
frustrated by Ksana-Kai's perplexing behavior.
Episode 11: Ksana-Kai describes her
illness, her source of "deja vue."
Episode 12: Ksana-Kai uses her "deja
vue" experience as a ruse for a lie.
Episode 13: Ksana-Kai bids farewell
to Kaji. See episode 1.
Episode 14: Kaji reminisces through a nightmare his
longing to be with Ksana-Kai.
Episode 15: Kaji personifies himself
as an abandoned planet, enchanted by a moon's light, which
turns out to a star that destroys him.
Episode 16: Kaji occupies himself
with his former love, running, only to imagine he sees a
vision of Ksana-Kai.
Episode 17: The mirage turns out to be, Taigi, a childhood
Taigi tries to entice Kaji at a cafe; however, Kaji wants to
keep their relationship platonic.
Episode 19: Kaji is tempted to start
a new relationship with Taigi.
Episode 20: Papo writes a poem to
Ksana-Kai while she is in her recovery room/ post-operative
surgery. Kai sings a song before surgery; Papo describes a
dream of being free from her illness, like a butterfly; she is
given a watch; and hears people/ visitors talk as she rests;
the roots of her illness are broken, which frees her
expression; she dreams of snow that melts into tears affected
by the sun.
Following her successful surgery. Ksana-Kai plans to travel to
California and re-unite with Kaji.
Episode 22: Ksana-Kai finds Kaji at
the beach, but Kaji is with Taigi.
Episode 23: Kaji gives Ksana-Kai a
poetic reproof and bids Ksana-Kai farewell.
Episode 24: Ksana-Kai resigns
herself to the reality that her relationship with Kaji is
Ksana-Kai struggles to cut her psychological ties to "Fred,"
the remnant remains of her brain tumor.
Episode 26: An angel like "blue
winged shadow" whisks Ksana-Kai away from her anxieties only
to drop her into an abyss of tears.
Episode 27: Ksana-Kai's intimate
visions of Kaji begin to fade.
Episode 28: Despite being haunted by
phantoms of "Fred," Ksana-Kai is resolved to move forward with
Kaya, Ksana-Kai's sister, depicts Kaji as a poison arrow that
infects Kai's well-being.
Episode 30: The narrator, Papo,
reflects on how we yearn for yesterday despite the pain, but
best to live in the present.
Episode 31: Taigi realizes Kaji's
soul is present with her, but his heart and mind is still with
Taigi realizes all these years she's been deluding herself
about a possible relationship with Kaji.
Episode 33: Kaji prays to God that
Ksana-Kai find peace and happiness. He wishes to say goodbye
one last time.
34: Kaji envisions Ksana walking aimlessly upon the beach.
He is helplessly intertwined in his love for Ksana-Kai.
Episode 35: Ksana-Kai sings one last
song to Kaji as she walks into the ocean to drown herself.
Episode 36: Kaji saves Ksana-Kai
from drowning herself. The meaning of Ksana-Kai's name is
Ksana-Kai and Kaji exchange sonnets of how their souls may
have communicated over the waves of the sea.
Episode 38: Ksana-Kai explains how
the "thorns of circumstance" could not suffocate their true
Episode 39: Kaji pledges
his intentions to marry Ksana-Kai.
Episode 40: Ksana-Kai poetically
shares her first intimate moments with Kaji after their
This poem entertains the possibility of everlasting love
despite the pain of their journey thus far.